As I sit and write, it comes alive to me with its little flutters and somersaults. The less I move, the more I feel it. So I sit, and sit, forgetting to breathe at times, just hoping to feel the baby I already love.
But behind the excitement and behind the love, lies uncertainty. Not an overwhelming amount of uncertainty, but just enough to make its presence known. And in that uncertainty, questions arise.
Will I be the same mother to two children that I am to one?
Will my patience endure?
Am I ready to resume night wakings and nursings?
Two under two? Am I ready?
Is Nate ready to be a big brother?
Will he feel that he has lost his mom to this new baby?
After I have questioned. After I have swam in the murky waters of insecurity. I remember the words I have heard preached from the pulpit since childhood, the words I have found to be true over and over again, yet I need to be consistently reminded. Because in my weakness, He is made strong.
1 Peter 5:7
Let Him have all your worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you.
I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart! And the peace I give isn't fragile like the peace the world gives. So don't be troubled or afraid.
Trust the Lord completely; don't ever trust yourself. In everything you do, put God first, and He will direct you and crown your efforts with success.
(Thanks to Stacey for these beautiful flowers)